Last year i been through SPM i regret a lot of stuff!!! bcos i din’t study!!! bcos i didn’t study hard enough!!! n bcos a lot of stuff!!! dis Spm year is the most horrible year i had ever been through!!! I dn’t knw wat to do!!! i even walk away from God!!! i really dn’t like tat being alone is very horrible!!! is like the living dead!!! I am tired of being like tat!!! n my family been through a lot of stuff!!! i dn’t hv people to talk to!!! i really want to get away from my house n i want to live alone but live is never like tat!! therefore i choose to not study UEC but go for SYM in 2011!!!
long long time no see…
hehehehe… ello, seen the last post long time liao… i haven’t write another post for a very long time… cos i lazy… n many other reason la…
now a… i am so lazy… but still got 20+ days then spm lo… i dont know a… still no mood to study… but had to la… wat to do spm o… must study one mah… i am so happy i finally got into SYM 2011… but i have to go through spm first… i malas want to go through SPM o… i now start to help my sister selling stuff… but i not sure can sell all of them off or not….
The E camp!!!
the e camp was great!!!
E is equip with the word of God!!!
Through dis camp really make me learn a lot more things… especially it is important to read the word of God!!!
in dis 2 days of camp i cried a lot…it is maybe i am really finding the way back to God… i dont even know why am i crying… i feel tat i am not ‘layak’ to be a leader in powerhouse but i know tat God put me there is for a purpose… even i dont influence people… i have been thinking lately!!! a lot of stuff!!!
Wrongs…!!!
with in dis few months i had done a lot of wrongs things include making wrong decisions… i feel so bad of making all de decisions… but who can i talk to??? answer is only God!!! but He dont always answer me… sometime i dont knw growing up n going through all dis things will make me grow mature or not de only thing i knw nw is i feel very painful inside… being me nw is kinder like a zombie living on de world but i dont want to be zombie… i want to forget everything tat i had been through dis few months n look for ‘jenny’ again… i dont like to feel alone…
from 2day onwards i want to look for de long time i hv nt seen person who named jenny… i dont like the way i live n do n even think nw…!!! i knw no one will see my post anyway just write to express myself from closing everything n locking everything inside the heart to make me feel so so hurt n bad…
Chinese new year!!!
Yupi Chinese new year i am going back to kl with my family n Joey will be there n meet us there!!! Long time didn’t go back to kl so happy o… i am going meet my all my uncle n aunty which i hv nt see them for quite a long time… n get a lot of ang pau… so happy o… can oso shopping there!!! easy to find shirts n pants my size there!!! cos i am quite fat leh!!!
tired of school…
school dis year is like only test n homework… on friday i was punished b’cos i failed my test… so ashamed o… i regret tat i didnt study well… bt i will do better for next test… then sports day is coming up oso…
school!!!
dis year spm o… just de first 3 weeks already got a lot n a lot homework… if nt then test a lot… at least one week got 2 up 5… then hv to study a lot lo… if fail get worst… de teacher make us copy a lot… not only tat tuition again… bt then still depends on de teacher… fail one time copy 10 pages… crazy… then everyday i am used to sleep at 10pm if nt then de next day sure wake up late… nt only tat in de prefect got a lot of other things to do again…
MACamp!!!
i always see people change after camp!!! i always wanted too!!! but i cant dont know y!!! but then i think is depends on when God wanted u to get it!!! dis camp started on 23/11/2009 – 10/12/2009 in Lintupan a kampung near Kota Belud.
Through dis camp i really know much more about myself… i used to be confuse about who am i really r??? am i a bad person??? am i a nice person??? i always think tat i am not good enough to do something… i hv no idea who am i really r??? even i am a christian for quick a long time but things is almost de same for me… i know i shouldnt hv tat type of thinking but dis question always come to my mind i tried not to think of it bt it will still come back… through dis camp i learn more then i hope to get… first i taught tat i go dis camp is because i dont want to stay at home with “them” bt i think dis is wat God plan for me la… i taught is just another camp just dont need to stay at home very good liao la… bt i dnt knw tat dis camp really helps me a lot n a lot… i really encourge people to go dis year if can!!!
going 3 weeks camp on 23th nov
on monday i am going to the YM camp for 3 weeks… dont knw how to survive without my computer & television for 3 weeks… i am kinda happy n kinda sad… looking forward to it… come back then share more!!! see ya!!!
Cell group- bowling at cp…
yesterday our cell group have different event then we usually hv… We r hving bowling at center point… there r 9 of us… i invited my neighbour to joined us to have fun…
we played 2 games… n hv a lot of fun 2gether… but dis 2 games make me very tried… but v still hv a lot of fun…
